can't anything *GOOD* get passed down to me?

so genetics may have fucked me AGAIN. i seen in the mirror the other day (i think), on the right side of my eye it's a little spot which is black and blue. i never got hit in the eye. i don't remember what (if anything) my grandma's cataracts looked like but i'm also seeing blotches of a different color in my perifferal vision every now and then. i also get to figure out if it fucked me again this monday after my mammogram. i don't feel any bumps on my boobs but knowing my shitty luck- i have something wrong. who knows though? i take more after my dad physically (skin color, hair color, and physical shape) so i may have nothing to worry about. i had the nurse look at my eye and all she said was, "i don't know- you should show a doctor." i forgot to bring it up to my doctor last week, i feel like maybe i should be having my yearly eye exam- unless i've already had it? can't i get anything GOOD and actually USEFUL when it comes to genetics? doesn't seem like it.
i also looked at my housing account for my massachusetts housing and i'm actually on the 2nd to last FINAL stage in housing. amy (NOT fat, nosey amy) can't come up with any excuses that say it was too fast notice or anything because we already had a meeting about housing in another state and so at least she's aware of my plans. hopefully it goes fast like the last time i got a housing offer from this housing company. God always brings me to better places to live- so i'll just have to keep my faith up. it's not fair because i get the idea that people around here think i'm crazy and i have too much confidence in unrealistic goals just because they're DIFFERENT and INCONVENIENT for them. this is MY life- NOT YOURS. you can't even answer the phone when the emergency room calls you. SOUND FAMILIAR AMANDA? you and dustin can laugh ALL you fuckin want at me. it's not gonna bring me any closer to either of you and for sure- NOT on either of your sad ass levels. worry about yourselves, you sad little twats. laughing at me won't degrade me in any way. ALL THIS FAMILY SUPORT! I WONDER WHY I'M MOVING! *rolls eyes* just because it's all sunshine and rainbows for YOU amanda- does NOT mean it's that way for everyone else- especially with the lack of support and care i get from my mom's mom's side of the family when attempting to live MY OWN life and in general.